in over my head

Hello there world wide web. I am here to break a nasty little conspiracy of women...for any men reading ...I don't know...go close your eyes or go find something testosterone based to do... Here goes...

Ahem, my name is Catherine and I am in over my head...
There I said it...

I hate saying it. I hate knowing it even more. but there it is folks, I am in over my head. From bills to kids, messes to 'should do's', I am in over my head. I want to have it all together, and I am the first to recognize some days I do, but not today (or this week for that matter). As women we flaunt our ability to do it all. Picture the mother stirring a pot on the stove, talking on the phone while holding a baby in her arms and if she could juggle for a circus she would. That is the ideal we are all expected to live up to, or I suppose I expect myself to live up to. I have a busy schedule, and three kids but somehow when the laundry is undone I am ashamed of myself. So ashamed in fact that in paralyses me into inaction. I want to breeze through life like we are all trying to do but this week I am stuck. Stuck by work, commitments, kids, LAUNDRY(!!!) and so on.

I think the hardest part this week is that I want so desperately to be a good mom, not just good but the best that I can be... and I feel like I am missing something. This is based on the frustrations my husband and I are currently facing with our two oldest little darlings.

Does anyone out there have any feedback on what makes your day work? Anyone got a clue about how to keep the motherhood/wife hood/womanhood show on the road? I don't know maybe this is really only about me and my challenging week, but it seems like in the dark corners of all of our conversations there is a secret acknowledgement that none of this is as easy as we thought it would be when the husbands were members of a boy band we dreamt about and the babies were dolls that ended up being left out in the rain.

I am open to any and all suggestions, ideas, critiques or thoughts...PLEASE HELP!!!

Howdy from Banff

I know Kimberly...it has been too long since I posted on my blog...but I finally had something I really couldn't resist sharing with you all...all like 3 of you but really who is counting. Anyhow we have been enjoying a week in Banff with my mom, the kids and myself...waiting patiently for Sean too...and just wanted to let you see what we have been up to.

We have had the chance to explore, swim, head up the gondola to Sulpher Mountain, check out some wild life and of course...this afternoon was makeover time...what girls trip is complete without that?

Our weather has been pretty rainy, but nothing compares to a Rocky Mountain thunderstorm...WOW! Trip has gone smoothly so far and I have only threatened to leave someone on the side of the road a few times...and in my defense I have never followed through!

Hope everyone at home is well and Sean; we MISS you SOOOOOOOOOOOOO much. Can't wait for you to get here!

Lotsa love,

Catherine, Hannah, Meg & Kane